I'm tired. I admit it. I'm tired of being like this. Stuck, nothing, empty. I'm bored, really bored. I need something new. I hate routine. Everything I do everyday are just washing the dishes, washing clothes, ironing the clothes, cooking meals, sweeping floor, sweeping backyard, watching movies, surfing in the internet, blogging, listening to the (random) music, reading books, writing something in the diary, having conversation with my parents, my brother, sometimes with my friends or my lovey, chatting with my lovey or my friends or whatever via BBM, WA, FB messenger, and the most I do is expecting the absurd thing. Oh, one more: praying to God for whatever happens in my life. I talk to God. Yeah, I talk to God about my life, about the truth in my life.
I confess, it's boring totally. All I did is just to wait for something. Destiny. To work or continue the study. I don't know. I just try to obey the rules from my parents. Try to be a good girl, nice daughter, cheerful sister, convenient lover, and ordinary woman although I want to be an incredible angel. I want to break free to be me, the real me. I wanna find myself. But I'm trapped. What can I do? I can do nothing. It sucks. Just let it by the flow? Huh, I've been doing it since I graduated from the university. Ehm, perhaps this is the thing I should take. No more regrets. Just face the truth. Obey the rules. Wait the result patiently. Hope that it will be worth the wait.
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